January ~~~~ Memories Of !

For those of you that know me you know just how hard the month of January is for me and the surrounding situations as to how i feel and why i am not my normal bubbly self during the month , and for those that don't well let me tell ya a little bit of the story , first of all i came across these poems on this site http://www.memoryjar.org/poetry.aspx and wanted to share of a few of the ones that really touched me off of it

TIME

Time cannot steal the treasures That we carry in our hearts.Nor ever dim the shining thoughts Our cherished past imports For the memories of the ones we loved Still cast a gentle glow,To grace our days and light our paths Wherever we may go.

Author Unknown

PENNIES FROM HEAVEN

I found a penny today Just laying on the ground,But it’s not just a penny This little coin I’ve found.Found pennies come from heaven That’s what my Grandpa told me,He said angels toss them down.
Oh, how I loved that story.He said when an angel misses you They toss a penny down,Sometimes just to cheer you up To make a smile of your frown.So don’t pass by that penny When you’re feeling blue,It may be a penny from heaven That an angel tossed to you.

Author Unknown

REMEMBER ME

To the living, I am gone.To the sorrowful, I will never return.To the angry, I was cheated.
But to the happy, I am at peace.And to the faithful, I have never left.
I cannot speak, but I can listen.I cannot be seen, but I can be heard.
So as you stand upon a short, Gazing at a beautiful sea-- Remember me.
As you look in awe at the mighty forest And its grand majesty—Remember me.
Remember me in your heart,Your thoughts and your memories Of the times we cried,The times we fought,The times we laughed.
For if you always think of me,I will have never gone.

I AM THE GENTLE AUTUMN’S RAIN

Do not stand at my grave and weep I am not there, I do not sleep.I am a thousand winds that blow,I am the diamond glint on the snow.I am the sunlight on ripened grain,I am the gentle autumn rain.When you wake in the morning hush I am the swift, uplifting rush Of quiet birds in circling flight,I am the soft starlight at night,Do not stand at my grave and weep I am not there – I do not sleep. Anonymous

Now as to the story of why January is soo hard for me

This is my Grama Hizer and to me she was one of the most amazing people in the world , She raised me for part of my life and i was extremely close to her , She was a jack of all trades and I am almost sure that there wasn't anything that she couldn't do ! For 20 plus years she was a teachers aid in the Fla school system and also worked in the church nursery for just as long . She loved Children and being around them and she loved God and wasn't afraid to tell any one just how much , In Aug of 1998 she was diagnosed with Breast Cancer

and while i hoped and prayed that she would beat it sadly enough she didn't it spread into her lungs and into her brain this all happened in a 6 month time period and was the hardest thing i ever experienced in my life and was something ill never forget , On January 13Th 1999 my Grama went home to Jesus and there hasn't been a day in the last 10 yrs that I haven't thought about her and haven't missed her so very much so many times Ive wanted to call her and ask her about a recipe or something on one of the kids but shes not there for me to make that phone call too so that's made it very hard over the yrs and I know that even tho shes not here for me to talk to shes always there to listen and that's a great comfort !

And then Jan 9 2005 my Grandfather passed away I never got to meet him but i had started talking to him on and off in email and on the phone and through letters from time to time , I do wish i would have been able to one day meet him and I know one day in heaven i will . But even still its hard to lose some one u never meet but that u felt u should know !

And in Jan of 2006 we lost this wonderful lady my Great Grandmother when she passed away it was just a few days before her 95Th birthday, There was so many things that i learned from this lady and I dont think i ever told her just how much she ment to me and how much I treasure the things i did learn , so many things about marriage , faith happiness and even cooking she saw alot in her lifetime and never once let it get her down ... I do soo miss her very much also !

And then in 2009 I know hes not a human or anything like that but hes still a member of our family and we did love him we lost our Dog Konann a few weeks ago ! And to us he did mean alot ! The boys and I are moving on from him being gone seems weird with out him but I know we enjoyed the many many years of happiness that we got from him ! And having him in our lives

So as you can see these are a few reasons as to why the month of January is so very hard for me to deal with I know that you aren't supposed to grieve the loss of a loved one but to celebrate there life and while i do some days i just miss them all so much Each year i try and do a layout in memory of my loved ones I haven't done one for my grandfather or Konann yet but this is the one I did for my grandmothers

Well Ive rambled on enough for this blog maybe i cant get outta my Jan blues now and get in gear and start working on them goals ! My Grama Hizers bday is the 24th of Jan so ill try and make it through the rest of the month ! Thanks for reading and God bless also thanks for all your kind words when Konann died they all meant so much to us all !

HAVE A BLESSED AND WONDERFUL DAY !

~A~

RIP Konann 2003 - Jan 6 2009

Its been kind of a sad day around our house today we lost one of our family pets Konann today and everybody around here is really sad ! We have had him and his brother Zeus sense March of 2003, and when we got them they were just bairly big enough to be given away . So we have had him for a long time , We can back home from our trip to Tn and he had gotten realy skinny and sick for some reason while we were gone so weve had him in the house trying to nurse our buddy back up to his old happy playful self, but we werent sure what was wrong with him so that made it hard to do And we just loved him and took care of him until the end ! Well miss the little guy he was a great dog and always loved to play with the boys ! So i ask for a prayer for all of us today and in the upcoming days .. Have a Blessed Day ~

Well miss ya buddy !

Monday Monday ~~

Yup here was the plan Hubby went back to work , kids go back to school , get up moving around eat breakfast workout clean up around the house do some laundry pull the stuff out for dinner and finish cleaning off my table and cleaning up my room again right so i can scrap .......



And this is how the days gone so far ! Hubby did leave for work this morning but he was late getting outta the house --- (2weeks vacation and no alarm clock will do this to u . but i enjoyed seeing him those 2 weeks and him not being outta town for work ) I did get 2 outta 3 boys off to school this morning got one home with this sore throat stuff that Ive had for a few days Gotta love this change of weather I think every body that I know around here's been sick sense Christmas off and on but its all good were staying positive and BradLee and I have been nursing throats and hanging out watching TV today but I've managed to get some laundry done I'm up moving around and know whats for dinner . So now were waiting on the other 2 to come home from school and start the daily home work grind and dinner etc ! But that's whats gone on in my world today so far ! I am gonna work on my room a little bit so maybe i can scrapbook a little bit either tonight or tomorrow That's my hope and If I don't get to work out today I will defiantly do it tomorrow And for those of you who are biggest loser fans a new season starts up tomorrow night ! and i cant wait !



Check out the Quilt my buddy Christina did for her Grandma for her 80Th birthday she did such a good job on it I know her Grandma will love it and treasure it also . She is also doing some amazing Blog Candy for her 100Th Blog , who wouldn't love to win all those goodies i know i would ~But she did a great job on her quilt go on over and check out her full blog she does such great work !



I hope that every ones having a good Monday as we all settle back into the daily grinds of school and work and being SAHMs now that the kiddos and Dear Hubbys are back to work we get to play catch up on every thing ! have a great day and God Bless ~



Heavenly Father , Please watch out for my husband this week while he is out of town away from his family working keep him safe and bring him back home to us , Watch over my Family and my Friends this week lord and hear there thoughts and prayers As we are starting a new year lord I pray that this world pulls together Father to find you and know your word and know that you are with us even in the storms of everyday life the turmoil the happiness and tears Lord you are there and we should Praise You in Any Storm and even in the Everyday when life is going just fine ~ So I thank you Dear Lord today for the many blessings that you have brought into my life I also ask you to watch over our Military Lord , And there are so many other things Lord I bring to you in my thoughts tho they are many I know that you know every one and while they go unspoken aloud I ask that you watch over those in them too ~ In Your Heavenly Name ~ Amen

~~~ Happy New Year ~~~And my Goals for the New Year

Wow can you believe that its 2009 already ,
I for sure cant :) We have had so much going on sense Thanksgiving I have hardly posted anything on my blog ! We've been so super busy tho , Sense thanksgiving between it and the 20 of Dec i did 40 pages for that book to my Aunt and Uncle ( which they just loved the book my mom did pages for it too and it turned out cute ), We spent a WONDERFUL week in the beautiful Smokey Mountains for Christmas we spent it with my parents , and my aunt and uncle and there family it was really nice and was pretty as always up there ill post pictures soon of our trip , we came home last Saturday from Tn and my Mother in law and her husband came in Sunday and stayed until Tue , that was another nice visit it was good to see them both and we all enjoyed the time that they were here , Then Wed we had my oldest sons bday party his bday is the 29Th then that night after the party we went to some Holly and Clints and spent new years eve with friends and family and had a great time we all really enjoyed our selves and it was soo good to just relax , Thur haha I got to sleep in finally and OH how amazing that felt and now yesterday and today were just kinda hanging out and vegging around the house before the boys all go back to school on Monday and hubby goes back to work , Then i get to start on my Goals for 2009
And my Goals for 2009 are as follows

1. I want to strengthen my relationships , With God , My Husband , Kids , Family and Friends each day is a wonderful thing and I want to learn more about the things in my life that bring me joy and follow closer with God because i know that through him all of my other goals aren't out of reach and are possible


2. I want to continue to work on losing the weight that I am trying to lose for a better , healthier and happier me my goal is to be sexy by 30 and so far sense July of last year when i first started working on losing the weight I'm down 35 lbs to date So far 2009 I'm gonna continue to get more excerisie , work out more and continue to use spark people its a great site that allows you to keep track of your calorie, food , exercise and weight loss ,If you join spark people look me up my id on there is amber083 I am a big fan of the TV show the Biggest Loser and have been sense it started , Last year tho i decided to take the stand and make the change for me because i was no longer happy in my own body and i know I'm not as healthy as i should be , I do want to be around to spend many happy years with my wonderful husband and kids , So this yr and I am going to continue my workouts doing the biggest loser excerise dvd's Theres a few of them out there I have the cardio , power sculpt, boot camp and the yoga and i will continue with my spark page , and eating habits ... No one said its easy to do id love to hear from any others who like my self are working on improving and making a better you for them self , maybe we can be encouraging partners to each other !


3. My scrapbooking and card making goals for the year are as follows I want to do at least 250 of my own scrapbook pages , and 100 cards I am going to not join no where near the swaps if any at all this yr I really want to focus more on my own work and getting personal projects done and working on them . Plus i want to keep a better track of what all I do this year so come end of the year i know for sure my totals



4. this year i want to work on having a more positive and hopeful outlook and to look at things in a more joyful way . The glass half full instead of always being half empty :) Change is good and I think this year not only as I am turning 30 ( in 4 months eeeek) that the positive things i want to work on will not only make me a better and happier person but will also have a positive effect on my family and friends as well



5. I also want to be better about keeping my blog , my space page and my Stampin Up Web Site all updated and letting everybody know whats going on with those pages and parts of our life and what the upcoming events and things happening are !



These are just a few of the most important goals i have to work on for 2009 I am sure i will add to them over the year as i continue to work on the ones that I have listed ! I am wanting to find a good bible study that I can work on so if any one know of a good one please let me know Ive made one card already this year its for my mother in law her birthday was today so I have to get it out in the mail to her Monday ! So here's the first one of the 100 i want to do for the year !
I cased it off a card on splitcoast and used the stamp set Paris in the spring and the geometric background stamp then turned around and used colored pencils to color it in ! I hope she likes it she loves to shop so she should !

I hope that every one is having a blessed and wonderful 2009 so far ! Thanks for taking the time to read my goals and hopes for the new year ! May God be With you all and I hope you have a Happy New Year !

Amber

Just somethings ive been working on

Here's some Christmas cards i made for the special folks in my life ! Things have been pretty no stop on the go busy sense thanksgiving . But I am grateful that while i may be busy its because of God and the family and friends that I have that keep me that way and I am so happy to have them all in my life ,
this is the holiday line up set from Stampin Up I love this set and it makes some cute and easy cards ! I also have about 22 pages I've done sense thanksgiving but I'm waiting for permission from the people who's kids i used in the pages before i post them on my blog !
Ive got soo much to do in the next week ! I hope to get to post again before then but just in case I don't I hope that each and every one of you has a very Merry Christmas and a blessed one and that you all enjoy spending the time with you family , friends and loved ones ! don't forget the meaning of Christmas and why we are all here today ! Take Care and God Bless
~A~

Christmas Time Stress~~God Will Provide

Yup its been a minute or too sense Ive updated the blog , well here goes this time of the year is stressful for everybody and if you have kids its even worse , Throw the state of the economy in and of course you have instant crazy and turmoil with a mind rushing a million miles a minute trying to scramble to make sense of things and try to find a way out to fix it and make it all better ... Sound familiar ... Haha that's been me for the last 2 weeks we have a approaching vacation to Tn coming up and Ive been soo excited about spending the time with my parents my Aunt and Uncle and there family and our family all together , to the point its all Ive talked about pretty much for the last 3 months (we've been planning this trip for a yr now ) .. Skied and happy to the gills i tell you Till Dec 1 and then i started really stressing cause things aren't going as i planned and aren't so smooth sailing and perfect rolling .. i know i know they never are ! But Ive complained cried screamed yelled cussed you name it in the last week . And I Praise GOD for the amazing friends and loved ones i have that have listened to me be such a bear and vent , and am even more thankful to them for telling me to stop stressing , and just say a prayer that God will provide and it'll all be OK ... So i did last night i decided that I'm done stressing what be will be and it will all be okay !! First yesterday was a BAD BAD day and looked so down and i was bad in the dumps , Then going to pick the boys up from school yesterday this was sign one and I'm sure Gods way of smacking me and telling me to stop ! and PUSH ( P--Pray U--Until S--Something H--Happens ) there is a song by a christian group called 10Th Ave North called By Your Side